My first 3am Google search as a mum was "will a baby have hiccups forever." I was genuinely concerned she'd be forty. In an office. Still hiccuping. And people would ask if she was okay and she'd say "mum didn't fix it."

It got weirder from there. Poo charts. Cot escape plans. Whether I was holding her too much. Whether she'd be sad if she fell asleep without me.

And then the funny ones ran out. And I ended up where I always end up at 3am — staring at my phone in the dark, asking the same question over and over, just dressed up in different searches.

Are my kids okay? And am I enough to keep them okay?

If your search history looks anything like mine — press play. You're not the only one clocking in at 3am.